Progress...

Promise me something, okay? Don't ever allow yourself to ignore how you feel about something...or someone because it may hurt. I can tell you now it hurts a whole fucking lot more to ignore it than it does to face it. No ones good with expressing their feelings because no one enjoys being vulnerable, that doesn't mean it isn't worth it.

I've made this mistake most of my life - I've missed out on a whole fucking lot because of it but recently I've been making progress. I can tell you that while it's stressful at first it feels so much better after it's out there  where someone else can share the burden. 

I'm changing a lot about my life right now, this is just first step and I'm excited. 

xx

"Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare; addictive ones who just bring out the most. Of everything. They make you feel so alive that you'd follow them straight to hell, just to keep getting your fix."

- Karen Marie Moning, Shadowfever

Grateful.

          I've spent the last few days thinking about how lucky I am. Things haven't been particularly great for me lately and as you often do when you're feeling like everything is against you - you ignore all the things you have to be grateful for. Some people hate those moments when they realize they've been ignoring all they do have in place of focusing on everything they don't - I on the other hand love these moments. They're humbling, they're powerful and they make me that much more appreciative of the things I have.

          Do I feel lonely sometimes? Of course, but I'm not alone. I have some of the most amazing people in my life. People that have and still do impact my life immensely everyday. Do I feel like I'm not where I should be at this point in my life? Yes. All the time. However, things could be so much worse, I could have a lot less than I do now and I know that I will eventually be where I should be because I know that regardless of how slow I may be moving, I am moving forward and that's all that matters.

Remember that you'll never be too good or have enough of anything that you can afford to not be humble.

xx

P.S. Thank you to the small gesture from the wonderful person in my life that made me recognize that I wasn't appreciating what I have going for me. I hope that I can return the favour.